Hey fav,
i've been missing you. i kept checking facebook all evening last night to see if you or any of the guys from blessing were online. i guess i missed the last day.I keep checking craigslist to see if there's any cars listed that will suit my needs. shirley says i need a van. but like jeeps they use too much gas. I'm trying to stick with something compact that gets about 25mpg. i like the forrester, but i'm also okay with another kia, sportage or a Hyundai santa fa. i guess it all depends on affordability or longevity i was thinking that you need a pair of carseats. the ones that will be good for two or three years and have cup holders. I only have 4 turns this month. well that is whats scheduled so far. i'm sure that we'll have a couple turn up that skip out or get asked to leave or get evicted. joseph is planning a bunch of stuff to keep us busy, but a lot of it will depend on the weather because its painting curbs, parking spot numbers and striping. We are going to fine tweak the shop. the guys are all taking time off later in the month. i sent mike to james' to get him away from ann. he was spending way too much time over there, those woman are all bullies the way they are always pushing their currently guy into doing what they wish. ann has always shown up with a weak guy in tow whenever she has brought one around. James knows a thing or three about women who are like that. bullies dont have to push and shove you around, they can use tears or guilt or threats of self injury or injury to children to get what they want out of you, ann has done all those things. people dont change, you can be with someone thinking they will change down the road if only you just stick around long enough. its stupid to think you can win someone over to think the way you do if only you stay with them long enough. people learn from their experiences but most of the time its not enough to change the core of who they are deep down inside. the person you share your life with has to be more than someone you want to sleep with. To love and respect and be honest with deep down inside. you need to know how to balance the times you need to stand firm and hold your ground and when to compromise on matters that are ultimately more important to your partner and maintain a long term relationship. sure its easy to lust after someone and sleep around. fine and Good and all that. i'm not gonna begrudge that about you or mike, not after all this time. just protect yourselves physically and emotionally. when that kind of relationship loses its appeal you'll move on to better ones that are longer lasting that you can maybe build a future with someday. its better to wait and learn what you About what you really need to learn about who you are. my dad was up here picking up some stuff from my grandma's house in grandview and james and him and mike were talking and decided that mike could get his head screwed on a bit better and help my dad get some work completed on his land down in tucson, so mike went back with My dad. mike needs to be around a man that is a family member that he is willing to listen to and gain some wisdom. mike just tunes out wes and g&g out, and i'm not making much of an impact. once mike reaches his 23 birthday he will have alot more choices open up to him, so he can get a job that uses his training as a driver. Driving truck is where his highest earning is gonna be. if he can get his debt paid off then he could train for something else if he wants. most trucking companies now have 23 as the minimum age they will hire. i think its because of insurance. the more choices the easier it will be for mike to get a local job. I think I'm rambling. I love you. Please be safe and take care of yourself. Mom XOXOXOXOX
