17 Aug 09

Mom-

So pretty much I'm just sitting here at the sick hall waiting for my battle buddy to get done and stuff. I think that he is going to be discharged and stuff. I kinda feel bad but he has a two week old daughter and stuff so maybe it is better for him to go home. Today I am pretty sure that I missed the intro to the obstacle course. But I dk yet I might still be able to do it. Who knows, but I am supposed to actually start doing some training now instead of bs and stuff. I'm kinda excited. I just want to be able to kill time. If I ever do start doing things. I wish I could call you again and already be able to talk to you. So now that your actually going to able to reply to me, how is everything? It just got done having a rain spout and it was just pouring down. Thought it was going to flood which would have sucked cuz I am outside waiting I hope you got that commanders letter I sent you. I dk if you wanna come or not. You need to let me know if you want to so I can set up my family stuff. f you do want to do then-plan for the second graduation on the 19th and 20th. I dk. I need to just worry bout the now and stuff. I hate being homesick. Do you miss having me around at all? I be grandma does. I'm so not used to the fact that I have no life anymore. I miss being around the people that I knew. Sometimes I wonder if Ava misses me. You should ask Shari if she does or not. That would be funny. Did Mike finish his school and stuff yet? Maybe he can schedule to drive down to Georgia and back and just pick me up or something haha. Ask him if that is even possible. I would be down for that. I hope he found a job at least. How crazy if Ann being lately? I wish Mike would get all that sorted out finally. It's really going to screw him over in the long run. I need to hurry up and finish and get the f out of here. I not quitting tho it's pretty much pointless to do that. They always say the best way to get out of here is to just finish training and all that. I believe it too. I just really f-ing hate it. But I guess that's the point. They just try as hard as they can to break you doing and then after all that breaking down and stuff they try to mold you to how they want you to be. I just don't think that I can work like that. I don't like that whole idea. I guess I am just trying to work with it all. I wanna write about something interesting instead just making you read all this ranting and bs but its kinda hard when nothing different has really been happening yet and that I haven't gotten any letters from you yet. I can't wait for one of your letters either. I wanna talk about so much with you. I wish it could be on the phone or even in person, that would be nice. Like I kinda almost want you to come to my graduation just so we can see each other but I dk if you want to or will even be able to. Like you'd have to get a hotel room for a couple nights. and then maybe a car to drive here with. Then there is the plane ticket too. I wish that would tell me sooner if I am going to be able to go home and stuff. I think I am going to with thanksgiving being around that time and all. And I told that Paige girl that I might be able to have thanksgiving with her family again. I had thanksgiving there last year. Her family likes me I think. Well I know her mom does and everything. I wonder if I am even going to have a choice in were I want to go to. I know that its still the beginning of training and stuff but I don't like dealing with bs and that seem to be one of the main things the army does. November 20th doesn't seem like that far away then again at the same time it does. I think that I am going to make a little calender or something. I miss west coast so much. I'm going try and stationed there when I wanna go to college and stuff. Like I wonder if its at all possible for me to live in the fort or something by clark. I wouldn't mind being a recruiter for my last couple years. Then going to school or something. I think that what I am going to do when I re-enlist and all that stuff. After my 3 years are up I think that what I might do. Cuz I know you can do it for almost 3 years. And I only wanna do like 5 years total but I might as well do the full three of recruiting. Have a bit more money and all. I just wonder what I am going to do until then like where my duty station is going to be at and stuff. I might try to get deployed twice or something. I will have to figure all that stuff out in time. Probably way later on down the road. I guess that sometimes when I am set on something I like to plan ahead. Who knows I just want to get this whole thing done and over with. So I can move on to the next thing. I love being impatient sometimes ha ha. So is Mike still living in your barn and stuff. I hope my thing will be OK when I get them and stuff. I have no idea when that will be tho but probably when I eventually get a place of my own. I dk when I'm gonna be getting a car. I wanna get them in a year or something or like maybe I will just wait till I get into recruiting or something. Who knows I need to stop thinking sometimes. Just worry about the now. I don't know how to do that when I really ain't got nothing to do I hate sitting around and stuff. Have you been watching your movies that I got you lately?I am definitely going to be getting a copy of forest gump when I can watch movies. Well I think I will write to ya later.

Love Ya

Jeremiah

Don't forget bout the myspace thing. You should use your address.

RECEIVED AUGUST 20TH 2009