From Mom, Sun 8/22/10 3:03 AM

Sounds like you need to write another poem. Seriously. Get your feelings out of your head and written down where you can review them. Even if you don't share it with anyone. I don't know. Just remember that we all love you here.

Cubby can say horsey. Just thought I'd throw that in. We went to FP this morning, I know. But I can't stand to be anywhere in the house but my bedroom. It's funny how much different the price was from last night to today when we had just about the same thing except a second cup of peaches.

When people ask you why your in Afghanistan, what would you say? I think a lot of times people forgot why American troops are in Afghanistan. Sure back in 2001, everyone was all fired up about hitting it hard and ridding the earth of the Taliban. People expect instant results. The Russians were there for almost 10 years before they withdrew. That left Afghanistan with no real government and the people leaderless. I don't know why I'm even writing that, your there, you see. Those people native to the land are like the little kid on the playground getting pushed around by everyone bigger than they are.

I went to Wal-mart today and got a new camera and I got a ups thingy to store stuff on and I will take a bunch of bad photos and send them to you in your next box. I think I'll be putting together a box next week and sending it. Wanna book? We stopped by G&G's today for a couple hours and chatted in the man cave while the boys spent a couple of hours emptying the box of toys and fighting over the same silly toy. We didn't even watch a movie, can you believe it? James was in Seattle watching a race today and he sent me a text saying that he was headed to AZ to visit his dad and that he may stop and see G&G for a day on the way. He's funny he sent me a text last weekend asking me if I wanted to invest in 10 acres east of Tucson. I asked him if there was water on the land and James said only during the rainy season in the summer. I wouldn't mind AZ if I had a excellent source of water, solar panels and a good air conditioning system. It would be too hot for the dogs. HAHA Hot Dogs.

I cut most of Fritz's hair off today while the boys took a nap. I cut him pretty short but that was because the 3/in blade wouldn't cut thru his hair, but the 1/16th did just fine.

Last night right after I sent you your email I got paged by 911. Mr. Farrakhan in the F Building fell and couldn't get up. Remember him, the really nice tall black man? He has been on Kidney dialysis for at least a couple years, a shuttle bus picks him up every other day and a few months ago he started using a walker. I think he has diabetes last night because he didn't have his shoes on I saw that he was missing part of his right foot. So they waited for me to drive in a grab a key and open his door. Instead of putting a boot in the door like they like doing so well. In the morning when I go in I'm going to put a key in a key box for the paramedics and call 911 back so the number can be on file and they can get in to him faster next time. He has a medical alert button that he wears. I told Joseph a few weeks ago that he would be the next resident to go especially if we have a heat wave.

I get down too, like I feel helpless sometimes to change the things that bother me. I really want to get out of this house and county, and as much as I think about it and wish for it, at the same time I feel stuck here. Just like I feel stuck at my job sometimes. I like working with Joseph and most of the time I like what I do there, but there are times when I open a door to an apartment that we just turned a year ago to find that the residents left it trashed. Yesterday I worked in a unit that had been in a fire a year ago last spring and the guys that lived there apparently really like the smell of dog urine and fleas. The carpet had so much piss in it that I'm surprised the floor didn't squish walking on the carpet. They left behind a bottle of bleach which I used to write curses towards them. We are still waiting to hear back about Andy's UA and piss test.

I love you and miss you so much, Mom XOXOXOX