Sat 8/21/10 7:40 AM

yeah i did get it and its amazing i sometimes grab my camera out just to look at pictures of the boys... i miss home soo much i hate it.

im still getting those dangerous times inside of my head wondering what the fuck am i doing here...
sometimes i think is this what fear feels like.
like one of my dark poems or something

i feel im becoming impenetrable to motivation.
still getting depressed waiting for the next time i can laugh.

i hate this place. even so much that forrest gump lines have ceased to help me at all.
ill be putting on my boots and just look at my feet and just think... fuck my feet and lt dan.

i like looking at pictures of home tho i need to find a way to save them..
maybe you should get an sd card for a camera and just fill it up with pictures from home of the boys and family and things and then send it back...
i think that would be way cool..

i hope it starts cooling down but i almost had heat stroke today..
just waiting for winter to come by

one thing that cheered me up is word that we might even be leaving early... if so i think i would volunteer to stay back longer just to help the new people out
let them know what they were up against.

as much as i hate this place i would do it... and i think i would finally be appreciated to for it