08 Sep 09

08 Sep 09

Dear Mom-

So my day hasn’t improved at all since my pissed off mood yesterday. I think I even woke up pissed off. Whatever there is kinda a group that has the some problem as me and it is pretty much the people I can get along with. I just am trying to keep thinking that there is another day tomorrow. Today the platoon guide tried to get me into trouble with the ds. He told my squad leader that he just wanted to sweat me. So when we were standing in formation earlier today he (the pg) was just being really rude and just all having a hard on for power and leadership and just cussing people out for no reason. So when he walked away, I flipped him off all jokingly and a different squad leader completely just told on me like some pre-school bull and can’t even be a man and confront me about it when he used to be the exact same way before he got his hardon about his leadership position. I’m getting to the point where all of this is depressing me. Seriously it’s retarded. One dude that I like and actually am friends with resigned from his position which was the lowest they will give out. Its just so much bull :__. Grrr. I hope I get a letter from you tonight. Should be coming up any minute now. Hopefully that package too. Today I fired at 200 yards and zeroed in pretty good. Tomorrow we go to the simulator to practice firing at multiple targets. Whatever. One day at a time. This was supposed to bring our platoon together and the moment it is tearing people apart. Since I am pretty depressed and pissed I’m just sitting back and watching the whole thing. Its ridiculous. I wish I could call and talk to you. I want some of your advice on all of this. I wanna know what to do. Mainly I want to be able to smile. You see to be one of the few people right now that I can think of that can make me smile just by talking to me. Well my mood is a little better now. I got three letters from you, one from tammy and one from my friend. Mom its Leonard not Lelnerd on my address. But no I haven’t gotten the package yet. I hope that the whole address thing isn’t why. Anywho sorry to hear about you losing another puppy. On the Brightside of things, that means that you might get to start your break sooner. I’m using my flashlight to write you with at the moment. I’m only up because I’m waiting for my laundry to get done. I hate not getting as much sleep as I can but I wanted to wash all of my socks because my toe problem doesn’t seem to be getting any better. Well as soon as I wrote that somebody came up and told me my clothes were dry. I asked him to bring them up to me. Some other shadow soldier pretty much. Thank you for the calendar and also for handling my bill thing. I miss ya and love ya lots. I wish I could just take the weekend off and come see you. But that would just be too expensive. I hope my plane ticket isn’t that much. I might try and see if its cheaper to do it the next day because I have a buddy that lives 40 mins away from the ATL airport but I think I’m just going to ask for the next available flight to PDX and unless its just outrageously high priced. I’m just going to take that one. The sooner I can get home the better. J I might surprise you too with a “mom can you come get me from the airport” call but I figure a little warning might be nice. Plus I know I’m going to be on the phone with you a lot anyways. I can’t wait to get my iphone. That thing will be so nice to have. I haven’t gotten a letter back from grandma yet but I’m sure I might get one soon. Well I don’t really know what else to write about. Umm. Hopefully things might start improving. I love ya lots and miss ya bunches. Tell everyone I said hi back like Scotty. I can’t wait to talk to you again. I can’t wait to watch Forrest Gump with ya either.

Love ya
Jeremiah
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PS remember to get the address right Leonard not Lelnard.