From Mom, September 21, 2009

September 21, 2009

Dearest Jeremiah,

It’s the first day of fall. Mornings are starting to feel a little bit crisp. Not too much rain yet either, so that’s been pretty nice. I stopped by the bank today and deposited money from the sell of puppies and deposited your check that you sent me. I am going to prepay my utilities for the rest of the year, stock up on dog food and buy my 2 inhalers that are waiting for me at Costco. Then hope for the best. Lol. I still have Pony to sell. So I’ll have that money also. This long break in puppies is a little scary regarding being able to pay utilities. I’m not going to worry about it much. I’m just trying to be prepared as much as possible, ya know? It feels sometimes like a big leap of faith quitting my job at HD. But then I remind myself of how much I was actually bringing home verses the expense of working there. Besides they are most likely starting to cut hours for everyone. So I would be earning even less and have the added stress of working about having less money available. Gas prices are still going up and I think that it will jump even more as we get closer to the holidays. It’s better to stay at home. Well we have had the little boys for almost 2 weeks now. I do enjoy having them around to play with and it’s fun to see them learn new things. They develop so fast at this age. I guess that Mike and Ann had a serious talk last night about the boys. Ann has pretty much come to the conclusion that she cannot take care of them right now. So Mike is going to go seek full custody of them and Ann will have visitation regularly. So that’s actually good that they are finally putting together a parenting plan. I told Mike also that he needs to encourage Ann to go to school and get her GED and take classes. Now would be a good time, otherwise she will never find a job that will allow her to be self-supporting. The better off she is, the less we will be drawn into whatever drama she creates for herself. She is going to be a part of our lives for at least the next 18 years. So Mike does have a plan for child care, so there’s no worries there when he gets to start work. Hopefully today he can find out whats going on with the postal trucking job. He also has applied at a couple other outfits. It will definitely be good for him to start work. Wes and Mike are starting to grate on each others nerves. Haha. Too bad Mike is having to learn things the hard way. I’m watching the wind blow outside the window. Some leaves are getting blown off the Japanese Plums. You know it would seem weird to move to a place where leaves stay on the tress all the time. I need to make plans for cleaning up the yard and garden area. I really wish I could get a load of gravel and gardening mulch dropped on the driveway. Now would be a good time to get stuff like this done before the weather really starts to turn. I would like to be prepared better for the spring next year. Besides everything being a mess and overgrown and there’s a lot of weeds that need pulling. I would like to change out of few trees that aren’t doing much growing to some that will grow faster, so there’s better shade in the summer. I also want some more pavers to finish out the pathways in back. I guess I want a lot of things sometimes. Most of the time more than I have money for. I should really just concentrate on doing the things that don’t cost money. Like it don’t cost money to pull weeds and the kitchen floor project is already paid for except the plastic sheeting that goes under the laminate I need a couple rolls of that. I even could build that partial wall there. I really don’t need to put sheet rock on it right away to do the flooring and I have the boards in the garage for that. It’s so easy to get caught up in wanting stuff or wanting more. Sometimes I guess it’s good to sit back and see where it is that you really need something and just try to keep things simplified. I love you and miss you so much. I sure hope I have a letter from you tonight when I get home. You are in my thoughts all the time.

Love mom.